Growing up, I was one of those kids who was strangely attached to certain objects. At first, it seemed normal, like stuffed animals and dolls. But as I grew older, and was introduced to the world of scented hand sanitizers, it was clear that I wasn’t just a fan of certain brands and products, I was a collector.
I remember very clearly, my mom asking me for some hand sanitizer, from Bath and Body Works of course, and counting the number of drops I would give her, because according to my research, the black caps were limited edition. They were in the original packaging and everything. I still have some left.
This also became a problem with stickers. And chapstick. And many more things I just won’t get into because the list would go on forever.
But what exactly is the point of collecting things if you aren’t using them?
This was something that my mother would ask me often, but as a young child, I again did not want to imagine the worst thing that could happen to me: my hand sanitizer being empty. Or even worse: having to throw it away.
You would think I would outgrow my collecting phase eventually, at least my parents sure hoped so. But I must admit, I still am very much a collector.
However, I am more open to sharing now. To use things up. To give things away. To throw things away when I’m all done with it.
And this was because of the power of the list.
Yes. I am serious.
It once again started with Bath and Body Works. I tend to get their stuff during their Semi-Annual Sale that is twice a year. It can bring 15 dollar products down to 2 dollars (and I’m sure as hell not paying 20 dollars for a candle.) Once I realized their sale wasn’t just a day, or even a week, but a whole entire month, I began to write down how much of certain products I had. This list began to be known as, “the stock,” which resides in the back of my planner.
Once I realized how satisfying it was to write everything down, seeing what type of products I needed more of, and what I definitely didn’t (looking at you body lotions), I began adding lists to everything else I collected often, and began my plan of what is now commonly known as Project Pan.
From what I know of, Project Pan originated from the beauty community. As beauty gurus and skin care lovers were constantly shilling products, consumers fell for it. Because their internet favs had a makeup cabinet for just their eyeshadow palettes, well of course they had to have one too. But unfortunately for consumers, it became clear that they really did not need that many items and there was no way they could use them all. So, people made a trend of using products until they were empty and making weekly, monthly or even yearly goals. They would then post what they used up and make a new goal.
One of my biggest collections was my scented hand sanitizer. So I started there once I went to community college. It was very easy to do, seeing as my campus was definitely not clean enough by my standards, so I started with using and sharing it. It became even easier once COVID started, and sellers were price gouging hand sanitizer up to 70 dollars online. I gave some to everyone I knew, and definitely used mine more often. And of course, if my hands got too dry from obsessively sanitizing my hands, I would use lotion.
What my, “stock,” made me realize very quickly was two things:
- How many items I truly had and needed to use.
- How quickly I would use certain items I owned.
For example, I tend to finish body wash after one to two months. However, it takes me longer to use lotion. This dilemma made me have to use problem solving skills, which I think no matter the situation, can be an important tool to have. So, I decided to stock up on body wash more than lotion, and use lotion every night during my night time routine.
What my lists also made me realize is what I needed to do more of and what I needed to do less of.
In regards to books, I need to stop falling for those book sales and finish reading the books I ACTUALLY OWN first. (I say as I look at Black Friday deals online.) I need to stop buying thrillers, even if they are good books, if they make me go into reading slumps because of the disturbing content within them. I need to stop buying books that involve witchcraft or magic. (Yes i read Harry Potter as a kid, no I never got over my witchy phase.)
I must admit, even with my harsh critiques over the United States and capitalism, I too cannot resist a good deal at times. It’s hard to shop ethically and minimalistically when nothing about the United States and their corporations are either of those things. But, if you are mindful about it, have a list for it, at least you are more aware of it.





















